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I have been working out for the past two weeks, which I know isn't long but I already am in the habit of working out so that happened quick and it feels amazing. I just went and walk/ jogged two miles with Zack and Ansley and it just feels wonderful. I was up at 6:30 and rather than go to bed it was like well hey, why not? So I woke Zack up and we went and got out sweat on. It really feels amazing. Every time I work out I wonder why I ever stopped. I have come to the conclusion that the real main reason is the sweating. Well something went off in my brain bc now I actually love the sweating part of it. So this time will be a complete change. Lifestyle. The way I eat. The way my brain is working. Everything. I will be a size 5 again. Currently.. and granted I just had a baby.. six months ago... not so "just" anymore.. I am 185# and a size 16. That sounds really big but it really isn't surprisingly... but I have about 50 pounds to lose. That's a lot. I am hoping that by the time I go back up north to see family for Thanksgiving.. which is in almost exactly three months.. I will be like 20 to 25 pounds down. I know it is possible bc I have done it before.. I am not meant to be overweight. I am the only one of my nine siblings that has a weight problem. I don't want to be that person anymore. I want my sexy back. I want to look good next to my fiancé. He is already pretty in shape and now that I am working out he is too and it's like damn man.. let me atleast START to look good before you go and start to look better. But yeahhh... So that's what I have been on lately. I can already feel a difference.. when I look down I can't even see my stomach. I have to squish my boobs in to see it. That's a really good thing.

geeeez

I have been BUSY. The last three weeks has been filled with nannying and A LOT of clients. I am not complaining. To help deal with all of the stress, I started working out. And I don't mean working out like I've always worked out.. which is barely. I mean for real, joined a workout group, took on an ab challenge, a leg challenge, and an arm challenge. I have been walking or doing dance workouts three to four days a week. Tracking everything on Weight Watchers. I even bought new shoes.. two pairs.. that's a statement right there. I'm dedicated. And I will be a size 7 again. Soon. Zack I even working out too. Speaking of Zack, we got engaged! And I don't think we plan on wasting any time in terms of a wedding. We are away from family for the most part except for his dad and my aunts. we are going up to Indiana in November for Thanksgiving so it would be nice to maybe be married already and have a reception up there with everyone. But anyways back to my working out.. I got side tracked for a second.. not that that isn't wonderful news! But yeah, I'm really excited. Today was supposed to be my off day and it's like I am already so into my fitness that I went at 8 in the morning to one of the many lakes in my town and power walked a mile and a half in 25 minutes. In the hot Florida sun. I had Ansley with me of course. I think it's really good for her. It just puts her in a good mood for the day. But yeah. that's where I have been for the last couple weeks. Trying to make it through alive lol. I will write again soon.. Ansley is yelling for me. :)